Alexisonfire's Wade MacNeil Opens Up About Addiction Issues, Rehab Experience

"I feel ok in my own skin for maybe the first time in my life. I actually woke up happy this morning...IT'S FUCKED!"
Alexisonfire's Wade MacNeil Opens Up About Addiction Issues, Rehab Experience
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Alexisonfire guitarist Wade MacNeil — also of Gallows and Black Lungs, and a talented film composer — has revealed he is in a better place after some recent struggles with addiction.

In an Instagram post this morning, MacNeil shared a photo from August 4, 2019. In the photo, he appears to be holding a glass of alcohol on an airplane, and the image is captioned, "drunk. miserable. depressed."

The post goes on to reveal that MacNeil went to rehab the day after Alexisonfire's winter tour ended in January. According to the guitarist, "I've struggled with addiction issues and depression for a long time. I've never spoken about it in any public way because I felt guilty and ashamed. Not being able to control that aspect of my life caused so much pain and sadness. Last year I was in hell."

Thankfully, MacNeil seems to be doing much better, and his experience with rehab was "life-changing." The post reads, "I feel ok in my own skin for maybe the first time in my life. I actually woke up happy this morning...IT'S FUCKED! I wanted to share this because I've got some hope now and I haven't had that for a very long time. Seems like we all could use a little more hope in these weird days."

See the full post below.

Exclaim! recently held a roundtable discussion on sobriety and the pervasiveness of alcohol abuse in the music industry.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

drunk. miserable. depressed. august 4, 2019 The day after the alexis tour ended in January I went to rehab. I've struggled with addiction issues and depression for a long time. I've never spoken about it in any public way because I felt guilty and ashamed. Not being able to control that aspect of my life caused so much pain and sadness. Last year I was in hell. But, the last few months in treatment have been a life changing experience. I was finally able to look at all the things I'd been stuffing down and numbing out for years. I feel ok in my own skin for maybe the first time in my life. I actually woke up happy this morning...IT'S FUCKED! I wanted to share this because I've got some hope now and I haven't had that for a very long time. Seems like we all could use a little more hope in these weird days. So, I thought it's time to get real with everybody. "There's a crack in everything. That's how the light gets in." Love, Wade.

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